I have been wanting to update my blog but I was too lazy to do it...Recently I have been feeling that I am not being appreciated...I am not being loved...I am not being cared...I am not being pampered. I missed my childhood when I was praised for performing well in my exams, when I was showered with small gifts from family and friends, when I was feeling loved all the time and I miss that feeling of being important in someone's life. Why do I feel that if I am gone, nobody will miss me? I am just down and when I am down, alot of stupid stufs get into my head and make my heart ache. I just want to be appreciated. I want to be told, " I love you for all that you are doing now", I want to be showered with love and for this I don't need gifts...i just need the words, the touch, the feel of love... I don't want to be ignored. I hate being ignored. I do so much yet I am being treated like I am transparent...like my feelings does not matter. I have tried talking but after awhile, it is back to..."I don't exist for a day". Now that I have said it all, I don't feel any better...come to think of it...when was the last time, I really laughed or cried my heart out....*think think think*...gosh it has been very long. It is so much better when I cry for everything...at least I felt better after crying...but now that I am ...ahem...matured, I dun cry for tiny winy problems coz I am 'stronger' but I feel weaker inside. Looking on the brighter side...darling zoha can read alphabets...from A to Z...of course missing few here and there :D
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