Thursday, June 30, 2005 She is my LIFE.

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Lots of blood was coming out from her mouth. She started crying very loudly. My poor darling slipped and hit her face on the floor and had her upper lip cut. I was all alone with my darling and I panicked when I saw the blood. I quicky carried her to the basin and tried to wash the blood away. It did not stop. I took her t-shirt and hold it in her mouth. She was still crying in pain. I called my mom quickly and told my sister what happened. She told me to put ice cube to stop the blood. I immediately put the receiver down and went to the freezer. I took out one ice cube and rub it on her lips. She stopped crying. The blood stopped after awhile but her lip was swollen. I was so sad seeing her in pain. I tried to take her attention away from the pain and I played with her. She was feeling better. After calling my hubby and informing him about the incident, I made for her brown rice cereal. She drank her cereal and she slept. She was asleep by 10.30pm. My hubby came home and the first thing he did was to go into her room. He had tears in his eyes after seeing her swollen lips. I felt that it was my fault that she had the swollen lips. This morning before I bring her to my mom's place, I checked her lips and I was glad that the swell had gone down. Shukur Alhamdulilah. The first time I saw blood in my darling zoha and I cried. I pray to God that he looks over her always, for her health and her well being. She is my life.

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Tuesday, June 28, 2005 a cup of coffee

The guy who pissed me off yesterday walked into our department. I turned my back to him immediately after i saw his face. He walked straight to me and asked if everything went ok yesterday evening at the court. I ignored him. He said something that really put me off. He said he admired my coolness yesterday. I ignored him again. He walked to my director's room after saying that. I got reminded of how he talked to me yesterday evening. I got angry at the thought. I continued reading my stuff for SQA. I just hope he doesn't spoil another day of mine. After a while , he came out of my boss room. He walked to me and tried talking to me again. He said he usually oblige me when i go to him to reset my password but yesterday it was not a good timing for him. He asked me if he can get me a cup of coffee. He said anytime I want, I should let him know. In my heart I was thinking, my foot I wanna drink your coffee. I ignored him again. I prayed he just disappear from my sight. He walked away and continued talking to my colleagues.

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A bad day at work

I came in at 1.30pm. I took half a day off in the morning to go to the doctor's place. I promised my collegue that I will be on duty for her this monday and I could not possibly go back on my words because she had helped me before. At 6pm, I log off from my pc and went to the court. I was expecting less crowd on a Monday but I was wrong. I noticed the line was very long as I walked into the court. I login to the pc and I had to login to access another software. The password I entered was wrong. I cannot use the system to update the cases. The court was in session. I sneaked out of the court to have my password reset. I went to the guy in-charge. He was on the phone when I went to his desk. The moment he hanged down the phone, he yelled at me. He said that it was my responsibility to login always to the system and make sure my password is working and so many other things he said to me. That idiot said I was wasting his time and he was very busy and he simply cannot put aside his work and reset the password for me. What duh f&##^#$%!!!! It only take few mins to reset the password. He scolded me for 10mins before resetting my password. I was fuming. I tried to reason out with him but then realised that I was wasting my breath....I remained quiet. I wanted to get out of that place but I got no choice but to wait for him to have my password reset. The idiot reset my password and all he said to me was that it was done and I can use the system with the default password but what the hell the default password was he did not tell me. I didn't want to beg him for the default password. I walked off from his desk. I remembered the last time I went to him, he told me the default password but I was not sure yesterday. I went back to my desk and tried the different password and thankfully I managed to get the default password right. I changed the password and started doing my work...my mood was totally spoilt because of the jerk. After I finished my night court, I had a ice cream to cool me down. The next time I come face to face with the jerk again, I am not going to be nice anymore. I called my poor hubby on my way back and told him what happened. I was sad that my day ended this way.*sigh*

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Quiz over

The quiz was fun. I was worrying for nothing. Actually it does not matter even if we did not study for the Quiz. We were only asked MCQs so thatz easy. The whole thing finished at 1.40pm and we took our lunch and came back to our desk. So much for the screaming and clapping when our group get the answers right. At the end, we came in third. The Interpreters came in first followed by the Family Justice.

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Monday, June 27, 2005 SQA Quiz

One problem after another. The walkabout was over last week and then comes the SQA Quiz. All permanent officers got to take part in this quiz just to familiarise ourselves with our organisation and their missions. We were given leaflets to bring back home to read over the weekend. I totally forgot all about that junk and thankfully my colleague remined me about it today. I got to bring it back home tonight to read. The quiz will be held tomorrow at 12.30pm @ the Auditorium. There are going to be many people from different sections/departments and if I ans any questions wrongly, that is the end of me. I am going to lose my face for sure. There are written questions as well as interviews. On top of that, I am doing night court today. I can't go back home early to rest as well. I have to read them....reading them is not a problem at all but understanding them will be a little problem. Well the group listing is out. Harp, rena & myself are in the same group. That's kinda little relief but i am sure they have done their homework. Oh gosh, it reminds me of my poly time. Stress, stress and more stress....to end this post in a lighter note, lunch provided ...*A BIG GRIN*

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Thursday, June 23, 2005 nightmares over

The hr big man, the development lady, the big man, one judge and their respective PAs were here crowded in our small department. The first reaction was like wow your office looks new. Well we actually took away all our personal stuff from our desk and strictly office things were neatly placed on each and every officer's desk. No songs in the background and the place was absolutely clean. We ladies were in our jackets and the guyz in their ties. They were impressed. Next the big man started his questions. What are your upcoming projects??? Who are involved??? What have you done so far???one question after another. My director spoke most of the time as if she has memorised all the answers. All we did was to stand around those big shots and take notes of what they were discussing...great. The discussion finally ended after one hour. The big guy then started asking each of the officers questions. It was my turn next.....sh**t. "So Miss C, do you like it here?". "Yes", came the word from my mouth.....My heart wanted to say otherwise. I just had a stupid smile on my face. What would have happen if I had answered NO. They would be glad to get rid of me the very next minute. End of the waiting. The whole gang proceeded to the HR department. I was able to breathe normally once they stepped out of CReST.

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Monday, June 20, 2005 a scary moment

there was this salesguy who came over to my mom's place yesterday. my sista and her family was at home too at the time. He was doing some demonstration with the detergent product. He poured them into 2 or 3 glasses. My dear nephew was sitting infront and looking. We were all watching the movie and at the same time listening to the salesguy. Suddenly my nephew went all pale. He stared straight at my sista. My sister thought that he drank the solution from the glass. She started questioning him. My mom, bro in-law and myself got so worried after seeing my nephew face. He started crying and he was looking pale. We all got worried. My sista nearly cried. She keeps asking him did he drink or not? He shook his head and then he said yes at one point. The next minute he said he was lying. We all thought he was joking. My sister smelled his mouth and my bro in-law carried him to the kitchen. Finally the whole saga was over. We all decided that he was pulling our leg and he did not drink the solution at all. *PHEW* that was a BIG RELIEF. The salesguy must have got scared because he left our place in a jiff. Never leave children unattended even for awhile. They should always be supervised.

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Wednesday, June 15, 2005 updates

The nightmare is not over yet. The workplan walkabout is postponed for next week. Another week of waiting. Geesh I am getting paranoid. Tonight I have to do night court. It is going to be a long day at work. This morning I was crying out in pain all of a sudden. I was having a terrible migraine and I was worried that I might not be able to go to work today. I was on medical leave the whole of last week and there is no way I can take another day off today. My migraine seems to be back. I feel my head very heavy...oh no the pain is unbearable. Why must it be everything falls on me? My health has not been good in the recent days. My appetite is haywire now and I don't seem to enjoy my food at all. Everytime I feel weak and I feel I got all the sickness in me. Ok it is my fault for not taking my medicine daily...I have to start taking those medicine again. I can't blame anyone but myself if things got worst. Why can't I be like others who can eat well and those who are going through each day without complaining about any pain or whatsoever. Oh God, please give me a clean health record.

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Wednesday, June 08, 2005 nightmare

the countdown begins. Another week to go and the inspection starts. Well the news is that the 'BIG MAN' is coming over to our department to discuss our workplan for this year. what the ###@@!. Man I don't know very well the upcoming projects in our department and one thing I know for sure is that I am gonna be in a deep shit. I just come to know that he is going to talk to each of us regarding our work life. How I wish I can tell him that I wannna get out of this place or at least the research & statistics department. All I can do now is not to think about it and take each day as it comes. Wish me all the luck (in getting a new job soon). :-)

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Thursday, June 02, 2005 this will be short & sweet

not really in a mood to write alot...enduring my headache for awhile now since morning and with the boss not around, i think i am going to rest my brain. Btw this is my first entry but my 2nd blog and this one is for all to read. Hopefully i c someone in here if not m gonna make it another private blog of mine. Ok ciao.

1:10 AM |0 comments